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Hi again....

Friends are the best thing i can have right now...
but best friends are better....but it hurts the most
when they backstab me....


haiz.......now,i dont think that the person can fix a hole
in my heart....it has crack several times since last year...
i dun understand why some friends cant keep their promises.....
even though they are still my friend....i wont treat her as before...

I dun want to fully trust someone anymore......

Bye!!

hi again....^.^...



THE past is the past!...hahas...


Its been quite awhile eversince my last post....well...last week...

Grandma from Malaysia came.....brought her to eat lunch at tampines....after that went to auntie's house....got bored and felt asleep to 7 pm....after that went to uncle's house and then another auntie's house...(btw,i got 12 uncles and aunties)....

The next day,went out to my cousin's house for family gathering....watch ironman...and then transformers....lolz....

And this monday....after training...went to eat at KFC at Bukit Merah Central...with gerald,rashid and sebastian....then went to a playground near anchorage...nahendran,star,jia ling and cheryl was there....play blind mouse...lolz...and we cheated when gerald was the catcher...SRY Gerald!!.....

Then...tomorrow got Friendly match with East View Secondary School...must be prepared!....ok...bye!!

I have a confession to make....

but this is not related to my love life...^.^...


I know you guys think i am normal...but actually,i'm different....though i dont show you guys....everyday i come to school...i pretend to be someone else...someone who i am not...someone i do not like to be...i pretend to like something that i do not like...lolz...i wish that i could let out the anger in me...the sadness...everyday...i pretend to look lively...but deep down inside of me...i feel heavy....well...i just cant let it out...the onlly thing i can do now is to keep and store all of it in me...and finally...when i know its right...i want to release it...but in the process...i will lose something i once had....its hard to tell a friend all of the struggles...but it will engulf me....because i have already feel the burdened right now....thats why...i prefer to be alone....so that i dont have to pretend to be wad i am not....thats why most of the time...i listen to musics...i makes me feel lighter...makes me feel like who i am before....this thing thats inside of me...makes me feel guilty....i just want to be alone...i just want to be myself....cause i dont want to lose it in the future....i used to be quiet,happy and cheerful...but now...i'm noisy,rude,hot-tempered...i just hate it....i just dont want to hurt anyone else but only me....i'm sorry old friends and best friends....i'm not the same anymore.....

everyday i think....why has god make my family different from before....my parents always had a fight which each other....everyday...my mom has to suffer...my dad always call her names...and tell me...trying to make me laugh...my father is a person who cannot admit defeat...most of the time...i'm alone...i feel that they are just like guardians that are taking care of me....everything must go his way...my mum's mum...well...she is all that i treasure the most....without her...i'll be nothing...i dont want to lose her yet...i've already lost my grandpa...he died before i was born...he died before seeing me...he died before even holding me baby hand and carry me...he died before i even see his real face....its sad.....my grandma always talked about him....she cried sometimes...its sad...i feel like crying now...but i cant...thats why i keep it inside of me...waiting for it to burst out....my dad plan to go overseas from 3 years to new zealand and work there...so does my mum...i'l be alone with my grandma...my brother is finishing his national service...he is going poly...my dad's mum...she live in malaysia...but i still love her....and grandpa...well...i also lost him when i was 10 years old...losing so many love ones is already a burden...i even dreamt of losing my mum's mother...i cried...i told her these exact words..."grandma,dont go...plz dont go...plz"...several times...she cried...i cried...and she gave we a big hugged...she was so warm....its sad.....its sad to say all this things...which i cannot bear it anymore.....









I'm weak

Hello!...Bored...I want Floorball Training!!!...

Last Friday

Bored and nth happen


Last Saturday


Bored and nth happen


Yesterday

Bored and nth happen


Today

*Meet Jaypal and give glove

After that

Bored and nth happen


Btw,even if something happen,i also forgot liao...and thank you Alvin Ho and Kok Boon for pulling me to the Jurong interchange...i owe you guys!!...^.^

BYE

hallo...yesterday felt sick....so suddenly...and i dunno why...weird...raindrops never fall on my head during the past few days...all my family members not sicks...lolz...on that day...it was to hot that i burnt up...but still same colour...today...feeling better cause i tell myself late night at about 12.40+am that i am strong...and blah blah blah...it really makes me feel better...maybe the mind is everything....well...still recovering but getting better every hour..i guess...





AND enjoy your holiday trip!...hehehe...and dun get me fired!...


bye.

=.=...hahas...0.o...hahas...>.<...hahas...-.-...hahas....

yo...whatsdown man....well...ok...last last week...i went to youtube
and saw this video by ryannarciso...all of his videos are cover songs...
you know wad is cover right?...well...if you guys dun know...i'll tell you...
(dumbz)...its the same lyrics but the way the song is being played if different...
the way the person sings is different...its like your own style of singing the song...
well...at the music box is one of the videos i loved...its by jonas brothers...and the song title is ETERNITY...there are tons of other songs that is very nice to hear!....

this friday...well...thought that it was a soccer tournament...but instead,it is a carnival that has soccer in it...and only can be played one game...boring...reached there at 4pm...our match suppose to be at 5.05pm but delayed a bit to around 5.20pm...before that went to raphael house with him,qianni,me,dexter,jialing...watch his brother terrorized the house...lolz...its fun...and raphael threw chewing gums at us like we are some kind of animal he is feeding...=.="...after that,play some card games and its was fun but not for someone...(cause she alwayz lose SHE).....
well...i went out with my parents today...and my bro...to tampines...its like damn far...but we used to stay there before i moved to commonwealth so we are very familiar with that area...at the foodcourt...my mum makes friends with other people easily...one second a stranger...and the next second is a friend...lolz...ate chicken chop....actually rite...its quite boring leh...i rather go to school and study than be at home...but during the school dayz...i feel like not going to school...i want to stay home...and now...its the other way round...weird...everything in life is weird...i guess so...hahas...i end here...going to black out already so bye!...hahas