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2009-02-25T05:07:00.000-08:00

New Blog!!

WWW.little-hazim.blogspot.com

MUST COME!...and relink plz

2009-01-08T04:47:00.000-08:00

Hi again....

Friends are the best thing i can have right now...
but best friends are better....but it hurts the most
when they backstab me....

haiz.......now,i dont think that the person can fix a hole
in my heart....it has crack several times since last year...
i dun understand why some friends cant keep their promises.....
even though they are still my friend....i wont treat her as before...

I dun want to fully trust someone anymore......

Bye!!

2008-12-16T03:08:00.000-08:00

hi again....^.^...

THE past is the past!...hahas...

Its been quite awhile eversince my last post....well...last week...

Grandma from Malaysia came.....brought her to eat lunch at tampines....after that went to auntie's house....got bored and felt asleep to 7 pm....after that went to uncle's house and then another auntie's house...(btw,i got 12 uncles and aunties)....

The next day,went out to my cousin's house for family gathering....watch ironman...and then transformers....lolz....

And this monday....after training...went to eat at KFC at Bukit Merah Central...with gerald,rashid and sebastian....then went to a playground near anchorage...nahendran,star,jia ling and cheryl was there....play blind mouse...lolz...and we cheated when gerald was the catcher...SRY Gerald!!.....

Then...tomorrow got Friendly match with East View Secondary School...must be prepared!....ok...bye!!

2008-12-02T06:44:00.000-08:00

I have a confession to make....

but this is not related to my love life...^.^...

I know you guys think i am normal...but actually,i'm different....though i dont show you guys....everyday i come to school...i pretend to be someone else...someone who i am not...someone i do not like to be...i pretend to like something that i do not like...lolz...i wish that i could let out the anger in me...the sadness...everyday...i pretend to look lively...but deep down inside of me...i feel heavy....well...i just cant let it out...the onlly thing i can do now is to keep and store all of it in me...and finally...when i know its right...i want to release it...but in the process...i will lose something i once had....its hard to tell a friend all of the struggles...but it will engulf me....because i have already feel the burdened right now....thats why...i prefer to be alone....so that i dont have to pretend to be wad i am not....thats why most of the time...i listen to musics...i makes me feel lighter...makes me feel like who i am before....this thing thats inside of me...makes me feel guilty....i just want to be alone...i just want to be myself....cause i dont want to lose it in the future....i used to be quiet,happy and cheerful...but now...i'm noisy,rude,hot-tempered...i just hate it....i just dont want to hurt anyone else but only me....i'm sorry old friends and best friends....i'm not the same anymore.....

everyday i think....why has god make my family different from before....my parents always had a fight which each other....everyday...my mom has to suffer...my dad always call her names...and tell me...trying to make me laugh...my father is a person who cannot admit defeat...most of the time...i'm alone...i feel that they are just like guardians that are taking care of me....everything must go his way...my mum's mum...well...she is all that i treasure the most....without her...i'll be nothing...i dont want to lose her yet...i've already lost my grandpa...he died before i was born...he died before seeing me...he died before even holding me baby hand and carry me...he died before i even see his real face....its sad.....my grandma always talked about him....she cried sometimes...its sad...i feel like crying now...but i cant...thats why i keep it inside of me...waiting for it to burst out....my dad plan to go overseas from 3 years to new zealand and work there...so does my mum...i'l be alone with my grandma...my brother is finishing his national service...he is going poly...my dad's mum...she live in malaysia...but i still love her....and grandpa...well...i also lost him when i was 10 years old...losing so many love ones is already a burden...i even dreamt of losing my mum's mother...i cried...i told her these exact words..."grandma,dont go...plz dont go...plz"...several times...she cried...i cried...and she gave we a big hugged...she was so warm....its sad.....its sad to say all this things...which i cannot bear it anymore.....

I'm weak

2008-11-24T00:15:00.000-08:00

Hello!...Bored...I want Floorball Training!!!...

Last Friday

Bored and nth happen

Last Saturday

Bored and nth happen

Yesterday

Bored and nth happen

Today

*Meet Jaypal and give glove

After that

Bored and nth happen

Btw,even if something happen,i also forgot liao...and thank you Alvin Ho and Kok Boon for pulling me to the Jurong interchange...i owe you guys!!...^.^

BYE

2008-11-12T06:51:00.000-08:00

hallo...yesterday felt sick....so suddenly...and i dunno why...weird...raindrops never fall on my head during the past few days...all my family members not sicks...lolz...on that day...it was to hot that i burnt up...but still same colour...today...feeling better cause i tell myself late night at about 12.40+am that i am strong...and blah blah blah...it really makes me feel better...maybe the mind is everything....well...still recovering but getting better every hour..i guess...

AND enjoy your holiday trip!...hehehe...and dun get me fired!...

bye.

2008-11-09T08:55:00.000-08:00

=.=...hahas...0.o...hahas...>.<...hahas...-.-...hahas....

yo...whatsdown man....well...ok...last last week...i went to youtube
and saw this video by ryannarciso...all of his videos are cover songs...
you know wad is cover right?...well...if you guys dun know...i'll tell you...
(dumbz)...its the same lyrics but the way the song is being played if different...
the way the person sings is different...its like your own style of singing the song...
well...at the music box is one of the videos i loved...its by jonas brothers...and the song title is ETERNITY...there are tons of other songs that is very nice to hear!....

this friday...well...thought that it was a soccer tournament...but instead,it is a carnival that has soccer in it...and only can be played one game...boring...reached there at 4pm...our match suppose to be at 5.05pm but delayed a bit to around 5.20pm...before that went to raphael house with him,qianni,me,dexter,jialing...watch his brother terrorized the house...lolz...its fun...and raphael threw chewing gums at us like we are some kind of animal he is feeding...=.="...after that,play some card games and its was fun but not for someone...(cause she alwayz lose SHE).....
well...i went out with my parents today...and my bro...to tampines...its like damn far...but we used to stay there before i moved to commonwealth so we are very familiar with that area...at the foodcourt...my mum makes friends with other people easily...one second a stranger...and the next second is a friend...lolz...ate chicken chop....actually rite...its quite boring leh...i rather go to school and study than be at home...but during the school dayz...i feel like not going to school...i want to stay home...and now...its the other way round...weird...everything in life is weird...i guess so...hahas...i end here...going to black out already so bye!...hahas

2008-11-03T08:44:00.000-08:00

Yo...the day of qian ni's birthday was the best...lolz....hahas...here are some photos...lolz...

nth to blog liao!...bye

2008-11-01T10:29:00.000-07:00

BORED!...=.=...how i wish i know how to hold a gun so that i can kill myself!...lolz...

I dun know why but every songs i hear,there will be memories in it...if i hear a song which i heard before...i will have flashback of the past...its like the songs is making me remember the past...i feel better after the flashback...some songs i dun like because it reminds me of something bad in the past....if i heard songs which i dun like,i will get this tingling feeling inside of me...i feel very uncomfortable!...lolz...some songs i like it cause it bring back good memories of the past...music really change me!...it plays a major role..i am always incomplete without them....i dun need games or GF or(well,you'll get the picture)=.=...and i hope when i grow up,i dun shut music out of my life....i dont want that to happen....

2008-10-30T23:40:00.000-07:00

Now i feel sad...actually its disappointed...i cant believe wad i just saw on my phone today...well...expect the unexpected....i dont trust them already...hahaz...they are downgrading from best frenz to good frenz to now,just frenz...haiz...lolz...maybe wad my tuition teacher has said is true...our life is like a train,the passengers is like our frenz...they get on the train until they reached their destination..like our frenz...they come to our life for a certain period like during primary school,when we graduate,we said we will be frenz for ever...lolz...but as time flies by,we grow further apart...haiz..soon,we became strangers...and at the end of the train journey,the train will be empty,only the driver which is me is left...more like the soul of me...when we die,our soul left us...and it will go back...go back HOME...

2008-10-25T04:41:00.000-07:00

ALL I WANT TO SAY IS I NEVER MAKE IT TO COMBINED SCHOOL TRIAL...

2008-10-24T04:00:00.000-07:00

0.0...i did not do well for exams...disappointed...i thought my mum would scold me...or punished me...but instead...she gave me a very long long talk about life...the difficulties....about love,studies and sports...i dun fine that she was nagging at me...i just found out that she is the best mum i have...and will have...next year i want to make my mum proud....why i just be like before...i still have no idea...regretted...well...i will miss my brother,JAYPAL,my fro friend,ahmir and sister,wei jie.....they are gone...i feel sad...lost so many good friend....i ask myself...could it be any worst than this...well...i am supposed to expect the unexpected...well...tomorrow got combined school trial...nervous a bit...11.30 am...its early...and i hope i dun overslept...=.=...well...i promote to express...and damned you jia jin...for winning me again!...i will win you next year...i guess...my family and I are shifting house...she was searching at bedok...and she ask me...if i want to change to bedok south secondary school...there got floorball...i just said anything...but inside...i feel sad...leaving my school...but its not decided yet...i hope not.....well...be happy!...thats wad i always tell myself...hahas...

Btw,i made a new song during my free time in school...here it goes...
Song title:Happy Life

I feel happy,
cant you see the stars in my eyes,
unleashing me from my disguise,
this feeling like never before,

when you knock at my front door,
my whole starts to change,
and this is wad i thought,

Chorus
ever since you came,
my life just change,
feeling happier each day,
just seeing your face,
never thought that i would say it,
but,this is my happy life,

well i still havent finished it...too busy...
thats all...i guess...i blog when i have something to blog...
bye!

2008-10-22T01:14:00.000-07:00

Bored...hahas...today got SAM fest...hahas....i was in the maths section...btw,the games doesnot link with maths leh...hahas...nvm...alif,demas and mazran was there....and my group got two girls...and both of them are very very noisy...cannot tahan...and one of them creep me out leh...everything she do must look at me.....creepy!....then had a very tasty breakfast...=.=...and you dun want to know wad it is....suppose to finish at 11.30...but extend to 12.30...sianz...can sleep....weird leh...today i saw one primary 6 malay girl look like priya =X...hahas....and i am not building any castle in the air too ok!...hahas...OH!ON!...TOMORROW MUST TAKE REPORT BOOK!...scared...hahas...lol...just hope i get good marks...and dun fail!!...hahas...nth to blog liao...Dumbz...

2008-10-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

Hi...i just cant believe tat i am updating my blog but WTH...just do it to pass time!!...like i always does...thanks for visiting my blog anyways and remember,this is a one stop blog so DUN ASK ME TO LINK!!...cause i lasyz...have fun and enjoy